[Spot] Equinox

I haven't posted in over a year. So I decided I should.

I work at ******. It really is an interesting place, but lately I've been getting the feeling that nobody likes me there. Here is why I think this:
Harry doesn't talk to me. Matt doesn't talk to me. Nobody from there calls me or invites me to go clubbing with them. They pass around the weed and skip me. Though I did get a promotion, nobody helped me figure out how to do my new job. Two of the people in a higher position actually confessed to me that they didn't want me to get the promotion. I'm getting paid less than everyone else, including those below me. Those I supervise don't listen to me and take breaks while they are on the clock right in front of me. Lately they've been putting me to do low position work. They ripped my drawings. Some of those in low positions seem jealous, others in higher positions seem threaten. Customers harass me. One even said that I should know Spanish. Which I do by the way, he tried to correct a word I said when in my country that's how you say it. Another woman said that what I did was very wrong, and I murmured, "And that's why I'm the best."
Anyway, here I am, the top employee as records show. I don't want to go anymore, due to all this negativity at work. Tomorrow I close. Aww!

I want icecream! Hey, and what happened to my leather journal?

Hey maybe I should start this again. What do you think?

Wow, It's been almost a month!

I got a fever.

The worst dream:

The dream was placed exactly as I was sleeping.. with the only exception being that my pants that where on the twin bed across the room had a the tip of the bottom of the pants pointing downward.. to form a duck looking thing...
So in my dream I was sleeping a little and opening my eyes... only I couldn't open my eyes.. and everytime I could get the eyelid to open a little I saw the duck blink ...
It's eyes where red... "you know how when you wake up and everythings a blur and some time in your life you woke up but couldn't open your eyes".. well thought it was just that I couldn't open my eyes due to the light and they couldn't focus so I thought I saw the duck blink...
Then still not being able to open my eyes.. I tried getting up and out of the room cause the duck shaped pants where scaring me.... it took some time because it seemed like my legs had the same problem it was hard to move them...
"You know how I ran track yesterday, well my arms and legs are stiff now and it's hard to move".. so in my dream I thought it was because of that.. So I finally manage to get up. And went to the bathroom, which was a little different to the real one here. But I washed my face and slowly my eyes and body got better...
My eyes where getting better earlier.. you know there where times I opened my eyes and the duck didn't move but as soon as I blinked it was hard opening them again...
My little sister passed by and got her towel and went into the bathroom kicking me out.. I walk back to the room and jumped back into bed to rest for a while, I could here my sister showering...
I closed my eyes for a very little while .. and when I tried to open them I couldn't, only but this little edge where I could see the duck moving.. I tried to get up but this time it was really difficult. I screamed for my little sister like two times and then my mouth went dead...
I managed to open my eyes.. and passed my hand over my face, and that's when I realized that I couldn't see my hand.. the image in my eye was like a picture or a cam that took forever to refresh...
Now with my free arm.. I moved it over my face and tilted my head, blinked my eyes but the same image stayed still, the image of the duck with a red eye..then I felt my face and started to scream.. it felt died and clay like.. with the movable hand I manage to get up and my eyes started up again when I exited the door.. I went for the bathroom and knocked on it with my free hand. I was half way through "Clarissa," when only "cla" came out and so did my tongue.. it just drop and felt like it was gonna slide out of my mouth...
I holded it tight against my mouth before it was about to to come out anymore. I felt like I could choke on my own tongue...I looked for the stairs but knew that was too dangerous my legs might stop holding me up. I tried yelling for help...
"Help" I screamed so many times.. "Clarissa." "Karina." "Mom." All half wrong and hardly loud enough to be heard from a person in the other room. Then my next instinct was.. This is it, I'm gonna be paralyzed forever. "Call 911" I shouted. "I need help." "911." Then my right leg trembled and I toppled over. Got back up and tried screaming "911." It seemed hopeless, and when I tried to scream "911" again .. my ear was about to explode...
I had to stop my lungs from throwing out the words.. My ears they where like clay...
I tried screaming again.. and that's when it happened; my ear pushed against my skin trying to get out but instead it made a circular motion like when you hold your hands together and swing them completely around you body, pulling it in and out of junt. That just killed me there, I started crying, and crawled back into bed, and that's when I woke up and opened my eyes.

The End

Hey Mister Rain Man Go Away!

Finally, finished reading The Fountainhead. Now I'm currently reading:

I think they want me to start paying for this thing. Yeah right, I'll probably dump it before paying.

"...Becuase I'm the middleman. The shortest distance between two points is not a straight line - it's a middleman..." -- The Fountainhead (II,X,320)

I'm dying my hair RED. Yippee!